All about me
Good day to you,
I'm a regular Indian mom of two beautiful girls and this is my blog where I document my adventures of being a mother struggling to juggle work,career, marital life and kids. I just recovered from a long decade of depression and I'm still not sure of my recovery, but I'm fighting and standing strong and decided to pursue happiness myself than sulk into the horrifying world of depression and anxiety.
I know that there are many many women out there struggling with young kids ,an unhappy marriage and maybe even fruitless career combined with anxiety,fear and depression. I would like to make this blog for those women who want to come out of these mental traumas and live life, pursue happiness for their sake and for their children's sake.
Let me introduce myself. Im an engineer, working in one of the biggest IT companies in the world. I got married to a Mumbai based financial consultant ,it was a pure arranged marriage . I had to hence move to Mumbai as this was the accepted normal. I live with his family in a small two bedroom apartment like most of the middle class mumbaites . IIhad to pause my career now and then for pregnancy and child care and after four years ,now I had to reset my career to where I started due to long gaps. My bank balance hence has dropped to a very small amount. Marriage was a turning point in my life. I had to unlearn and become a different person. Three years down the line, I stopped adjusting. I stopped letting their words and behavior destroy me and I stopped letting them... FIX ME . Yes, now fours into my marriage, I'm seeking happiness myself in my own terms and without any compromises . By no means am I interested in divorce, instead my husband and I have decided to try and see each other's interests and work on it. My husband is now trying to be nice and have let me be me which has made me a lot happier. I have two daughters aged 2 and 8 months,they are the my most precious jewels and the biggest reason why I want to be successful in life. I want them to stand up to me not look down with disappointment. I want them to see ME as their first female example and say " oh! when I grow up, I want to be like mom" .
Now I'm in a position where I feel I can control my mind and force myself to think positive . Now I feel my life and adventures might help other women in the same position. Hence I decided to write this blog to document my day to day life .
I was born into a modernized south Indian family and I'm the only child to my parents. When I say modern, I mean my parents aren't conventional and have a broad and rational outlook. They never made me feel like " you are just a girl", rather they encouraged me to face the world alone ,stand independently and live life on my own terms. I was brought up outside India and hated it. When I first understood Indian culture ( university) ,I embraced it, loved the freedom of living in this beautiful country. I loved the feeling of being in your own country, a feeling of belonging that you'll never get anywhere else. But soon that feeling dissolved and problems kept coming in . I had planned to go for MBA after BTech but that didn't happen and before I knew it, I was 25 and feeling like I was running around in circles . My professional life was good but I felt ready to start a family. Looking for a groom for me was my mom favorite activity and she had a sudden stroke that left her paralyzed and mute . Hence I decided to marry to see her happy. Now they are alone in my hometown and I'm in Mumbai.
Although now I've accepted amchi Mumbai as my own and is fascinated by the Maharashtrian culture ,it was very difficult for me to adjust in the beginning. Mumbai is not a place for everyone, you either love it or hate it. If you have money and friends, there is no place like Mumbai but if you don't, you will sulk miserably in a greying apartment and noone would bother.
Although now I have a few friends, I still have very less money to spend and hence most of the time I'm in doors. In fact, every time my daughter sees me wearing jeans or dressing up, she asks me if I'm going to the doctor's place, because that is the only place I go to .
Learning to be independent is the key to survival in today's world. Similarly learning to be mobile and active will ensure your mind won't become stale . I believe in the proverb that an idle mind is the devil's workshop, once you get occupied, you are busy, you do not have time for negative thoughts . I have personally witness the change in me once I started being more active . Positivity is everything, you believe that you are doing well, then you are doing well . It's all about how powerful your mind is. My husband keeps telling me" he who controls his mind, controls all" .
I indent to fill this blog with positivity . My Hobbies are enormous. From music to DIYs to fashion to sarees ,I love everything what a modern metro girl loves. I was trained in carnatic music from 3 years to 15 years but my love for the 90s pop culture and Britney Spears meant I didn't pursue traditional music after 10th grade. Art on the other hand was not like that, I loved painting from childhood and especially interested in portrait and fashion designing. Although I don't monetize on my paintings, I enjoy oil painting and acrylic painting. I will show you some if if works. My mom is extremely creative and was an expert in DIYs during her childhood days . She once made a lotus out if egg shells and it was so realistic that actual honeybees came to suck nectar from it. Maybe due to that, I too am a master of DIYs . I love up scaling old stuffs, adding embellishments etc.
I'm a regular Indian mom of two beautiful girls and this is my blog where I document my adventures of being a mother struggling to juggle work,career, marital life and kids. I just recovered from a long decade of depression and I'm still not sure of my recovery, but I'm fighting and standing strong and decided to pursue happiness myself than sulk into the horrifying world of depression and anxiety.
I know that there are many many women out there struggling with young kids ,an unhappy marriage and maybe even fruitless career combined with anxiety,fear and depression. I would like to make this blog for those women who want to come out of these mental traumas and live life, pursue happiness for their sake and for their children's sake.
Let me introduce myself. Im an engineer, working in one of the biggest IT companies in the world. I got married to a Mumbai based financial consultant ,it was a pure arranged marriage . I had to hence move to Mumbai as this was the accepted normal. I live with his family in a small two bedroom apartment like most of the middle class mumbaites . IIhad to pause my career now and then for pregnancy and child care and after four years ,now I had to reset my career to where I started due to long gaps. My bank balance hence has dropped to a very small amount. Marriage was a turning point in my life. I had to unlearn and become a different person. Three years down the line, I stopped adjusting. I stopped letting their words and behavior destroy me and I stopped letting them... FIX ME . Yes, now fours into my marriage, I'm seeking happiness myself in my own terms and without any compromises . By no means am I interested in divorce, instead my husband and I have decided to try and see each other's interests and work on it. My husband is now trying to be nice and have let me be me which has made me a lot happier. I have two daughters aged 2 and 8 months,they are the my most precious jewels and the biggest reason why I want to be successful in life. I want them to stand up to me not look down with disappointment. I want them to see ME as their first female example and say " oh! when I grow up, I want to be like mom" .
Now I'm in a position where I feel I can control my mind and force myself to think positive . Now I feel my life and adventures might help other women in the same position. Hence I decided to write this blog to document my day to day life .
I was born into a modernized south Indian family and I'm the only child to my parents. When I say modern, I mean my parents aren't conventional and have a broad and rational outlook. They never made me feel like " you are just a girl", rather they encouraged me to face the world alone ,stand independently and live life on my own terms. I was brought up outside India and hated it. When I first understood Indian culture ( university) ,I embraced it, loved the freedom of living in this beautiful country. I loved the feeling of being in your own country, a feeling of belonging that you'll never get anywhere else. But soon that feeling dissolved and problems kept coming in . I had planned to go for MBA after BTech but that didn't happen and before I knew it, I was 25 and feeling like I was running around in circles . My professional life was good but I felt ready to start a family. Looking for a groom for me was my mom favorite activity and she had a sudden stroke that left her paralyzed and mute . Hence I decided to marry to see her happy. Now they are alone in my hometown and I'm in Mumbai.
Although now I've accepted amchi Mumbai as my own and is fascinated by the Maharashtrian culture ,it was very difficult for me to adjust in the beginning. Mumbai is not a place for everyone, you either love it or hate it. If you have money and friends, there is no place like Mumbai but if you don't, you will sulk miserably in a greying apartment and noone would bother.
Although now I have a few friends, I still have very less money to spend and hence most of the time I'm in doors. In fact, every time my daughter sees me wearing jeans or dressing up, she asks me if I'm going to the doctor's place, because that is the only place I go to .
Learning to be independent is the key to survival in today's world. Similarly learning to be mobile and active will ensure your mind won't become stale . I believe in the proverb that an idle mind is the devil's workshop, once you get occupied, you are busy, you do not have time for negative thoughts . I have personally witness the change in me once I started being more active . Positivity is everything, you believe that you are doing well, then you are doing well . It's all about how powerful your mind is. My husband keeps telling me" he who controls his mind, controls all" .
I indent to fill this blog with positivity . My Hobbies are enormous. From music to DIYs to fashion to sarees ,I love everything what a modern metro girl loves. I was trained in carnatic music from 3 years to 15 years but my love for the 90s pop culture and Britney Spears meant I didn't pursue traditional music after 10th grade. Art on the other hand was not like that, I loved painting from childhood and especially interested in portrait and fashion designing. Although I don't monetize on my paintings, I enjoy oil painting and acrylic painting. I will show you some if if works. My mom is extremely creative and was an expert in DIYs during her childhood days . She once made a lotus out if egg shells and it was so realistic that actual honeybees came to suck nectar from it. Maybe due to that, I too am a master of DIYs . I love up scaling old stuffs, adding embellishments etc.
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